Have been away from writing blog for quite some time. Today decide to write bout this topic...
--------------------------------RELATIONSHIPS------------------------------------
Today, i just get to know that both of me seniors had broken up. Both of them has been together for more than 4 years i think...But now they broke up..i feel surprised when i heard bout it. Sometimes i'm thinking whether relationship is a long-term thingy or not....when u really love a person with all ur heart...there always will happen something that wasn't what u wanted....
It's always hard for a girl and a guy to be together....but it's so so so easy for them to just to say 'break up' and say 'bye bye' to each other....
It takes how long for a person to recover from the HURTS & SADNESS??
for me....it really took a long time for me to think through and get away from all the hurts that are poking into my heart. Now....i feel i'm no longer what i used to be....i feel myself change!! Change to be worse....
To every couple: If u decided to start a relationship with someone that u had fell in love with....pls love them with all ur heart...and if there's really any problem between both of u....u should talk it out with each other....dun drag things....it will be worse!!
God Bless!!!^^
Friday, November 12, 2010
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Feeling Sad..=(
This sem break is kinda bored to me...but also there are some moments that is very interesting.This sem break i feel is a time for me to really find back myself and thinks through problems.
This week is the mid - autumn festival. And i get to know that one of my friend is having a party in her house. And i didn't get invited....i really feel leftout. I've stand all this for so long. And i finally find my friend to ask her and tell her how i feel. The reason i didn't get invited is cause they ald ask another person go d...so they can't ask me. I really dunno whats the prob of two going together. I know we may need to face each other..but what's the problem? In the end we still need to face each other right? And what my friend say was that i cant just think of myself (selfish)....but did i really selfish? All these while i've make the first move to do good to that person...but what i get in return is just zero...am i really the one who is selfish?? But i feel that the person is more selfish than me... cause of her, and the stubbornness... make our friends suffer....and cause of her hatred against me, i cant get together with my other friends...cause of her i've no longer have a true friend there....I really very hurt and very sad bout all these....
It makes me hard and dunno how to face all of them anymore....just feel like running away and get off from that hostel and that college....so that i can start a new life. But i cant get rid of the truth..the truth is i need to face them for one more year. How i get to overcome all these??
I really appreciate the friend...she is my best friend....and in the end we become like enemy. I know i've did things that she doesn't like before....but....everyone did wrong things b4 right?? Who don't deserved to be forgiven? And she also did things that i doesn't like....ya...i admit that sometimes i really hate the way she do things in front of me....i even have the thought of saying out everything...but i just cant do it...cause..i still treat her as my friend...my best friend..
Think back last time we are really so good....think back every happy moments....i really feel very sad u know....but i just feel u r so cold blooded towards me..make me feel scary....
If this is the fate that me and u should become like enemy then i'll just face the truth....But i dun believe it's fate....and God won't do such thing also...I'll just believe in God...and let him do the rest....
This week is the mid - autumn festival. And i get to know that one of my friend is having a party in her house. And i didn't get invited....i really feel leftout. I've stand all this for so long. And i finally find my friend to ask her and tell her how i feel. The reason i didn't get invited is cause they ald ask another person go d...so they can't ask me. I really dunno whats the prob of two going together. I know we may need to face each other..but what's the problem? In the end we still need to face each other right? And what my friend say was that i cant just think of myself (selfish)....but did i really selfish? All these while i've make the first move to do good to that person...but what i get in return is just zero...am i really the one who is selfish?? But i feel that the person is more selfish than me... cause of her, and the stubbornness... make our friends suffer....and cause of her hatred against me, i cant get together with my other friends...cause of her i've no longer have a true friend there....I really very hurt and very sad bout all these....
It makes me hard and dunno how to face all of them anymore....just feel like running away and get off from that hostel and that college....so that i can start a new life. But i cant get rid of the truth..the truth is i need to face them for one more year. How i get to overcome all these??
I really appreciate the friend...she is my best friend....and in the end we become like enemy. I know i've did things that she doesn't like before....but....everyone did wrong things b4 right?? Who don't deserved to be forgiven? And she also did things that i doesn't like....ya...i admit that sometimes i really hate the way she do things in front of me....i even have the thought of saying out everything...but i just cant do it...cause..i still treat her as my friend...my best friend..
Think back last time we are really so good....think back every happy moments....i really feel very sad u know....but i just feel u r so cold blooded towards me..make me feel scary....
If this is the fate that me and u should become like enemy then i'll just face the truth....But i dun believe it's fate....and God won't do such thing also...I'll just believe in God...and let him do the rest....
Thursday, September 9, 2010
fRiEnDsHiP....
Today i would like to talk bout friendship.,...actually i really have a lot of issue bout 'FRIENDSHIP'! Does everyone really know what is friendship and what is friends mean????
I feel sometimes friend that are really close with use aren't that good...
some of them is really FAKE(I dare to say this)....
they say others r fake...but what bout themselves??
They are more fake okay???I can't stand this anymore....especially......(i'm nt going to say this here)
one min u can be very happy and say that u like got a lot of friends...
one min u can say u dun have friends!!Do u really appreciate ur friend????
i mean friend that are really care bout u!!
i can acc u when there is no one.....but if there's someone???
will u think bout me???NO!!!!
I was really HURT by it ok??I ald fed up in saying so much things....
i ald fed up with this friendship.I no longer can stand u...
.i'll just IGNORE...And pls.....when there is no one...pls dun ask me...
u have no RIGHTS to call me "FRIEND"!
FRIENDS FOREVER!!!
some of them is really FAKE(I dare to say this)....
they say others r fake...but what bout themselves??
They are more fake okay???I can't stand this anymore....especially......(i'm nt going to say this here)
one min u can be very happy and say that u like got a lot of friends...
one min u can say u dun have friends!!Do u really appreciate ur friend????
i mean friend that are really care bout u!!
i can acc u when there is no one.....but if there's someone???
will u think bout me???NO!!!!
I was really HURT by it ok??I ald fed up in saying so much things....
i ald fed up with this friendship.I no longer can stand u...
.i'll just IGNORE...And pls.....when there is no one...pls dun ask me...
u have no RIGHTS to call me "FRIEND"!
FRIENDS FOREVER!!!
I believe that there are friends that is really good.....
i really wanna thanks those friend for being good to me^^
i really do appreciate them a lot
although may be there are times that v will argue and a lot of disagreement
but all this is part of friendship (all kinds of relationship too)
I wish our friendship will last forever.....=)
Monday, September 6, 2010
A bored Holiday...
hmmmm....started my 4th sem break...still got one more year to go ler....
everything is moving very fast^^
i hope this sem break will be a happy and fun holiday for me..=)
hmmm.....now i started a new lfe..i love it...i'ver been kinda optimistic nowadays, so it is a good thing right??
this few weeks i been thinking through this word 'true happiness and mere happiness'
now i can differentiate it. True happiness is come from inside ur heart...no matter what happen...no matter how difficult that situation is..u also will me happy....(from inside)!
mere happiness is just temporary....ya...make u happy..but that is not long lasting.and when a person laugh or smile,doesn't mean that he or she is happy.This is from my point of view.
Now i would comment something about friendship.....haiz...talk bout this i just feel very dissapointed....thought i really had good friends in college..but i realize all of the stuff that i thought bout all this time is just fake!!some of the friend are just using u...
when they dun have other friends to accompany...and there's only u..they will ask u to go here go there with them...but when there's other friend...they wont even bother u...
when u having probs....some of them will run away from u....is that call 'friends'??
NO!!!!!
everything is moving very fast^^
i hope this sem break will be a happy and fun holiday for me..=)
hmmm.....now i started a new lfe..i love it...i'ver been kinda optimistic nowadays, so it is a good thing right??
this few weeks i been thinking through this word 'true happiness and mere happiness'
now i can differentiate it. True happiness is come from inside ur heart...no matter what happen...no matter how difficult that situation is..u also will me happy....(from inside)!
mere happiness is just temporary....ya...make u happy..but that is not long lasting.and when a person laugh or smile,doesn't mean that he or she is happy.This is from my point of view.
Now i would comment something about friendship.....haiz...talk bout this i just feel very dissapointed....thought i really had good friends in college..but i realize all of the stuff that i thought bout all this time is just fake!!some of the friend are just using u...
when they dun have other friends to accompany...and there's only u..they will ask u to go here go there with them...but when there's other friend...they wont even bother u...
when u having probs....some of them will run away from u....is that call 'friends'??
NO!!!!!
Friday, June 25, 2010
26.6.2010
Now is 2.50am, feeling a bit tired but still not willing to go to bed....(silly right?).Hmmm...whats bout my day today....
Let me start from this morning..^^
Erm...this morning i actually skipped my lecture which is start at 8am!!!I hate this lecture..so early in the morning..i rather lay on bed..wakaka...i'm so lazy..=P
I wake up at 10.30 am this morning and prepare for my class. After the class me and one of my friend pack our luggage bag and wanted to go back hometown d..but v decided to go jusco to have a lunch at McDonald...honestly..it was so FULL!!! Nearly cant walk..hahaha...
So after finished eating, v walk to take bus and bla bla bla [i'm not going to explain the whole journey, just to make the story short ^^]..okay..and in the end i reached my house...and bla bla bla again...until now...hmmm...actually i really miss him a lot..but he's very tired,so cant chat with me for long. So he went to sleep and i decided top write this blog.=)
Both of us really less sms with each other ald...like just few days chat a while like that. Sometimes really miss him sooooo much!!!But i just tell myself to control. I remember one day while i'm sleeping i dream of him...after i woke up...i very very very miss him again...and the feel is like if i still dun sms him..i think i'm going to cry out...[is there something wrong with my mind?]
Can i tell u something here???
I REALLY LOVE U VERY MUCH!!!
Let me start from this morning..^^
Erm...this morning i actually skipped my lecture which is start at 8am!!!I hate this lecture..so early in the morning..i rather lay on bed..wakaka...i'm so lazy..=P
I wake up at 10.30 am this morning and prepare for my class. After the class me and one of my friend pack our luggage bag and wanted to go back hometown d..but v decided to go jusco to have a lunch at McDonald...honestly..it was so FULL!!! Nearly cant walk..hahaha...
So after finished eating, v walk to take bus and bla bla bla [i'm not going to explain the whole journey, just to make the story short ^^]..okay..and in the end i reached my house...and bla bla bla again...until now...hmmm...actually i really miss him a lot..but he's very tired,so cant chat with me for long. So he went to sleep and i decided top write this blog.=)
Both of us really less sms with each other ald...like just few days chat a while like that. Sometimes really miss him sooooo much!!!But i just tell myself to control. I remember one day while i'm sleeping i dream of him...after i woke up...i very very very miss him again...and the feel is like if i still dun sms him..i think i'm going to cry out...[is there something wrong with my mind?]
Can i tell u something here???
I REALLY LOVE U VERY MUCH!!!
Monday, May 31, 2010
1.6.2010
Now is 5 am..nowadays i always sleep very late and wake up very late too....cauxe every night also online with my friend.
Today my day is feel with joy of cause....i went out to 'cari makan' with my classmate...really eat until very full and i enjoy eating those DELICIOUS food too...YUMMY!!!HAHA...
After having dinner, i suggested to go to a park or some sort of 'garden'...and finally we reached this beautiful park...actually i suggested to go to a park or garden is because i wanted to have fresh air and let myself forgot about my unhappiness....watch the night...the sky....the stars(although is only one or two..=P)....i feel myself being led away...and i feel better...
I wanted to have a new life....a happy life with friends around...gather together and go 'wet'...Is better than staying in the hostel and sleep sleep sleep...and think of silly stupid things....hmm...i hope all that will be over for me after some time....i hope i can go through it...jia you...^^
Today my day is feel with joy of cause....i went out to 'cari makan' with my classmate...really eat until very full and i enjoy eating those DELICIOUS food too...YUMMY!!!HAHA...
After having dinner, i suggested to go to a park or some sort of 'garden'...and finally we reached this beautiful park...actually i suggested to go to a park or garden is because i wanted to have fresh air and let myself forgot about my unhappiness....watch the night...the sky....the stars(although is only one or two..=P)....i feel myself being led away...and i feel better...
I wanted to have a new life....a happy life with friends around...gather together and go 'wet'...Is better than staying in the hostel and sleep sleep sleep...and think of silly stupid things....hmm...i hope all that will be over for me after some time....i hope i can go through it...jia you...^^
Friday, May 14, 2010
15.5.2010
Now is 2 something again....nowadays got the habit of sleeping late..
Today i went out with my primary school classmate..it was great and i really enjoy spending time with them. They consider as my childhood friend...during the gathering...we took a lot of pics with each other and also celebrated one of my friend's birthday. I think she is really surprised by that..cause her bd wasn't today. I reached house around 12.30am...i was so nervous and scare that my mom would scold me...haiz...but..just forget bout that..haha
Today, he was a bit unhappy and moody....may be is because i said something that he doesn't like...but i really dunno that he doesn't like bout that....actually i really miss him a lot..and wanted to talk to him on the phone..but both of our phone also less credit ald. Actually i wanted to tell him that i miss him and wanted to talk to him....but i think by saying that doesn't help me anything, so i rather just not to say it...I hope he will be ok after having a good night rest.
Today i went out with my primary school classmate..it was great and i really enjoy spending time with them. They consider as my childhood friend...during the gathering...we took a lot of pics with each other and also celebrated one of my friend's birthday. I think she is really surprised by that..cause her bd wasn't today. I reached house around 12.30am...i was so nervous and scare that my mom would scold me...haiz...but..just forget bout that..haha
Today, he was a bit unhappy and moody....may be is because i said something that he doesn't like...but i really dunno that he doesn't like bout that....actually i really miss him a lot..and wanted to talk to him on the phone..but both of our phone also less credit ald. Actually i wanted to tell him that i miss him and wanted to talk to him....but i think by saying that doesn't help me anything, so i rather just not to say it...I hope he will be ok after having a good night rest.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
14.5.2010
This is the first time i'm writing a blog...=)
Now is 2 something and i'm still awake...dunno y i couldn't sleep nowadays..Am i thinking of those things again??Sometimes i tell myself not to think too much bout those things since i'm not in a hurry..and i still got plenty of time. Now i should just enjoy myself and enjoy my everyday life. Thinking bout those problems will just make me suffer. But sometimes i just couldn't control myself from thinking.
All those memories came back to me day by day...it cross my mind every time when i go to places which both of us go before. I really hope those days will be back again....but i know even if it would to happen..it also wont be so fast...is ald been 4 months...and i'm still waiting...but i dunno how long i will have to wait. For years???Hmm....i hope i can know exactly how long i have to wait. I dunno how long i'll be able to wait..but i'll try..
My feelings towards him is not the same as 4 months ago....it is not that strong anymore....but there's still some in my heart..i know i couldn't let go...
Now is 2 something and i'm still awake...dunno y i couldn't sleep nowadays..Am i thinking of those things again??Sometimes i tell myself not to think too much bout those things since i'm not in a hurry..and i still got plenty of time. Now i should just enjoy myself and enjoy my everyday life. Thinking bout those problems will just make me suffer. But sometimes i just couldn't control myself from thinking.
All those memories came back to me day by day...it cross my mind every time when i go to places which both of us go before. I really hope those days will be back again....but i know even if it would to happen..it also wont be so fast...is ald been 4 months...and i'm still waiting...but i dunno how long i will have to wait. For years???Hmm....i hope i can know exactly how long i have to wait. I dunno how long i'll be able to wait..but i'll try..
My feelings towards him is not the same as 4 months ago....it is not that strong anymore....but there's still some in my heart..i know i couldn't let go...
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