1.6.2010

Now is 5 am..nowadays i always sleep very late and wake up very late too....cauxe every night also online with my friend.

Today my day is feel with joy of cause....i went out to 'cari makan' with my classmate...really eat until very full and i enjoy eating those DELICIOUS food too...YUMMY!!!HAHA...
After having dinner, i suggested to go to a park or some sort of 'garden'...and finally we reached this beautiful park...actually i suggested to go to a park or garden is because i wanted to have fresh air and let myself forgot about my unhappiness....watch the night...the sky....the stars(although is only one or two..=P)....i feel myself being led away...and i feel better...

I wanted to have a new life....a happy life with friends around...gather together and go 'wet'...Is better than staying in the hostel and sleep sleep sleep...and think of silly stupid things....hmm...i hope all that will be over for me after some time....i hope i can go through it...jia you...^^

15.5.2010

Now is 2 something again....nowadays got the habit of sleeping late..

Today i went out with my primary school classmate..it was great and i really enjoy spending time with them. They consider as my childhood friend...during the gathering...we took a lot of pics with each other and also celebrated one of my friend's birthday. I think she is really surprised by that..cause her bd wasn't today. I reached house around 12.30am...i was so nervous and scare that my mom would scold me...haiz...but..just forget bout that..haha

Today, he was a bit unhappy and moody....may be is because i said something that he doesn't like...but i really dunno that he doesn't like bout that....actually i really miss him a lot..and wanted to talk to him on the phone..but both of our phone also less credit ald. Actually i wanted to tell him that i miss him and wanted to talk to him....but i think by saying that doesn't help me anything, so i rather just not to say it...I hope he will be ok after having a good night rest.

14.5.2010

This is the first time i'm writing a blog...=)

Now is 2 something and i'm still awake...dunno y i couldn't sleep nowadays..Am i thinking of those things again??Sometimes i tell myself not to think too much bout those things since i'm not in a hurry..and i still got plenty of time. Now i should just enjoy myself and enjoy my everyday life. Thinking bout those problems will just make me suffer. But sometimes i just couldn't control myself from thinking.

All those memories came back to me day by day...it cross my mind every time when i go to places which both of us go before. I really hope those days will be back again....but i know even if it would to happen..it also wont be so fast...is ald been 4 months...and i'm still waiting...but i dunno how long i will have to wait. For years???Hmm....i hope i can know exactly how long i have to wait. I dunno how long i'll be able to wait..but i'll try..

My feelings towards him is not the same as 4 months ago....it is not that strong anymore....but there's still some in my heart..i know i couldn't let go...