Feeling Sad..=(

This sem break is kinda bored to me...but also there are some moments that is very interesting.This sem break i feel is a time for me to really find back myself and thinks through problems.

This week is the mid - autumn festival. And i get to know that one of my friend is having a party in her house. And i didn't get invited....i really feel leftout. I've stand all this for so long. And i finally find my friend to ask her and tell her how i feel. The reason i didn't get invited is cause they ald ask another person go d...so they can't ask me. I really dunno whats the prob of two going together. I know we may need to face each other..but what's the problem? In the end we still need to face each other right? And what my friend say was that i cant just think of myself (selfish)....but did i really selfish? All these while i've make the first move to do good to that person...but what i get in return is just zero...am i really the one who is selfish?? But i feel that the person is more selfish than me... cause of her, and the stubbornness... make our friends suffer....and cause of her hatred against me, i cant get together with my other friends...cause of her i've no longer have a true friend there....I really very hurt and very sad bout all these....

It makes me hard and dunno how to face all of them anymore....just feel like running away and get off from that hostel and that college....so that i can start a new life. But i cant get rid of the truth..the truth is i need to face them for one more year. How i get to overcome all these??

I really appreciate the friend...she is my best friend....and in the end we become like enemy. I know i've did things that she doesn't like before....but....everyone did wrong things b4 right?? Who don't deserved to be forgiven? And she also did things that i doesn't like....ya...i admit that sometimes i really hate the way she do things in front of me....i even have the thought of saying out everything...but i just cant do it...cause..i still treat her as my friend...my best friend..
Think back last time we are really so good....think back every happy moments....i really feel very sad u know....but i just feel u r so cold blooded towards me..make me feel scary....

If this is the fate that me and u should become like enemy then i'll just face the truth....But i dun believe it's fate....and God won't do such thing also...I'll just believe in God...and let him do the rest....